During this next week and a half or so I’m gonna be swamped with school work that I need to finish up for the end of the semester. Unfortunately that means I probably wont have a chance to really work on anything new or to fiddle with much else on this site. So I’m doing 2 things. First, I have a poem I wrote back in February that I’m posting now. I’ve also submitted a slightly edited version of it to the Landfills Literary Magazine featured in my “I’m Following” tab, so hopefully that will get published in the next week. Second, I’m gonna start fiddling with a new page on here that’ll kinda feature some of the books, authors, poets, etc. that I draw some inspiration from or at the very least enjoy.
So those things are happening. See y’all in a couple weeks!
The Gambler
I knew the odds
Before I sat down at the table
For years I watched on the sidelines
Afraid to take the risk
As those around me anted up
Some took the pot
Others burned out
One took his addiction elsewhere
Falling back on old habits
Hoping one day he’d win it big
I’d played a hand or two before
But that was years ago
And that game was small-time
Just a bunch of kids really
They never played for stakes like these
So the day I laid down my chips
At this table
I don’t know what I expected
A few others were already seated
And one in particular
Appeared to be cleaning house
I played it soft and slow at first
Feeling out the table
And the cards being dealt
Sizing up my opponents
I could’ve walked at any time
Moved on to more promising tables
But this was the Pot I wanted most in the world
Then the favorite lost the lead
He got cocky
Lost his head
Poor judgment
And I made my move
Aggressive yet steady
I held my ground
Soon the table favored me
And the amateurs left the game
Surely, I thought,
The Pot is mine
I grew comfortable and confident
But as the old timers say
Never count your chips at the table
One opponent remained
And wanted to redeem himself
Take back the Pot he had lost
Thanks to his carelessness
It happened gradually
I almost ignored it
He played like a pro
But I refused to give up my spot
My luck had gone cold
And I ordered drink after drink
Nearly on tilt
As he took hand after hand
I was losing my hope
I guess
He just had better cards
And all the anger
And depression
And drunken nights
Can’t change the cards I’m dealt
Even though he runs the table now
I just can’t bring myself to walk away yet
Eventually
I suppose
I’ll move on
Half-heartedly
Throwing down chips at other tables
Maybe I’ll even win a small game
Or two
But this was my first big Pot
And I’m sure
I’ll always come back from time-to-time
When I’m feeling restless
To play a few hands
And see if I can get back in the game
In the end though
There were lessons to be learned
Lady Luck is a bitch
Don’t get mad at the Dealer
And Love is a cruel game